So not long after putting this up, the same day infact, my laptop bit the dust and currently is in repair ;-;
also check out this artist! She's trying to develope her style a bit more and is doing free art! qqui.deviantart.com/journal/Wh…
First of all apologizing for my lack of activity on web related things completely! Recently started going out a lot and I kinda lost interest on everything here. However, as my unsettled mind likes to be I've started to loathe going out so I should be making more of an appearance on here from now...especially as its the summer holidays so I don't go back to work till September!
Yeh I don't know if I mentioned this I quit University earlier this year and got myself a job, which I'm currently holding on till October then I'm jobless. It's been a tough year I'm not gonna lie.
As mentioned before Im sure, my depression has returned with a vengeance, the added bonus panic attacks, mass paranoia and breathing difficulties I've been facing my confidence has hit the lowest it's ever been. I'm actually terrified of looking for a new job for having to deal with most unfamiliar human contact these days. Before anyone says anything yes I have been to the Doctors and yes they said nothing was wrong with me....So whatever.
This last week is the shittiest I've felt since Christmas and it was a low blow considering it was the last week of work. I wasn't much in the mood for celebrating and ultimately felt like I hit a dead end. It's a hard thing dealing with considering since a young age I've always had an idea of at least what I wanted to do. University studied Art out of me and I've had little inspiration to carry it on or even try anything. I have been considering animal work again but my allergies are still holding me back. Money is not a major worry its just in very little amounts now so I can't do a lot with it per month.
However there is a light at the end of the tunnel and I've been offered some manager training by a friend that now owns a tattoo shop! And even mentioned if I get into it he could offer me some apprenticeship in tattooing! So I guess I'm holding onto that for a bit right now and I'm rather excited I might be learning something new and hoping I'll get some new lease on life.
I guess thats all I needed to update right now lol not going into much more details but I feel bad for just upping and disappearing on a lot of people on here! I just got some things I need to sort out so please bear with me things have been hard for me and Im struggling to deal with reality as it is ;-;